Since March, my writing stalled. For months, I couldn't imagine writing a story and barely had any interest in looking at what I had already written.
Somehow, despite the heat, during the summer, I regained my momentum and took another look at the stories I worked on so hard over the past couple of years.
I started out by doing a writing inventory. This process helped me become familiar with the stories already completed, what I wanted to do to polish them up, and re-read any half-finished pieces as well. I ended up going back to the drawing board on many stories. This involved doing what I feared the most - rereading my stories.
To be honest, when I have already started the submission process, I am afraid to go back and re-read a story. Is that weird? I feel like if I reread the story I'm going to notice flaws. Flaws I should have spotted before. Flaws that kept me from getting published. I fear that I will have to accept that I wasted time when I could have spotted these mistakes in the first place.
Yet, I did just that. I re-read my stories. Revised them. Re-submitted my stories for a new round of critiques. When I polished what I could, I re-submitted.
I'll be honest, this process feels exhausting. It often leads to many more rejections. It often leads me to feel perplexed about what I'm missing in each story. I wonder sometimes if trying to re-write too many times ruins my stories.
Then, something happened this past month. I got published. My flash fiction story entitled, "We've Been Here Before," will be published by the Sky Island Journal in their fall issue, released mid-October.
I never thought I'd get the chance to say that this year about any of my creative work. I got published.
What I've realized about writing this year is that I no longer fear the revision process. I think I used to because so many times my stories end up being nothing like where they started. In fact, this story that will be published later this year, changed many times. The main character was originally female. I changed the title about four times. It was originally under 500 words (now about 980). Some things did remain, but overall, the story changed.
Now, I'm open to changing my stories. My writing process and revision process may not be right for you, but it has worked for me. Going back, re-reading, rewriting, and tweaking things here and there has become a familiar writing process for me. I no longer worry about changing the story into something it wasn't when it started out.
Since March, I've gone back and rewritten and polished up several of the stories which are now back into the submission process. Sometimes my settings change. Many times the endings have changed. There is more to do and many more stories ahead of me to rewrite. There are also many more rejections to get beyond.
If you lost your momentum, I encourage you to pick yourself back up and keep pushing forward. So much of writing requires endurance, a trait that I've learned more about this year than other years in my life.
Keep writing. Keep rewriting. Keep getting feedback. Keep submitting. Perseverance pays off.
Nicole--You are a true writer. Not because of your publications, but because you do persevere. You get rejected... and you get back up, dust yourself, and start all over again.ReplyDelete
There used to be some toy for kids. They were called "Wobbles." (I think that's how they were spelled.) They had rounded bottom surfaces. The line that kept getting repeated during commercials was, "Weebles wobble but they don't fall down."
Maybe we need to say that about writers. Writers falter but they don't fall down. They might get temporarily "stuck" but they get back up and continue to write and revise and submit.
Congratulations on the acceptance and soon-to-be publication. Sometimes our pieces go on amazing journeys before they finally get a yes. This story is proof that is true.
So true Nicole! Congratulations on your story being published. Keep writing!ReplyDelete
Big congrats to you, Nicole! For getting published, of course, but mostly for staying in there, keeping at it and NOT giving in!ReplyDelete
Way to stay on it, Nicole! I can't wait to read your story. I'm so excited for you!ReplyDelete
I won't read my work after I submit either. It's healthier that way because it can become an obsession. I will always find something to correct.
Sky Island is a great journal, and I think it's fantastic you changed the gender of your protag and it made your story work. I picture you having an aha moment, and I love it when that happens! Aren't the editors at that mag guys? You must have nailed the perspective.
Congratulations on the publication, Nicole! I'm sure this is the first of many. I hope you're taking time to celebrate. :)
Congratulations Nicole on your publication. So glad you got your momentum back. Yes, perseverance definitely pays off. Continued success.ReplyDelete
@Sioux - I love that correlation between being a writer and the wobbles toy! I think that's so true. We get stuck but we get right back out there. :)ReplyDelete
@Anne & Cathy -Thank you both!
@Angela - Oh so true, I always find something to correct, which can be good and bad! And you are right! They are guys! Writing in that voice was weirdly easier becase all of a sudden I realized my character's purpose. And it made him so real for me!
@Jeanine - thank you so much!
Congratulations on the acceptance!ReplyDelete
After I submit something, I don't reread it until I get ready for the next round of submissions. Then I read it again. Have I learned something that will help? Can I see something that needs to be rewritten? If so, I make the changes and then out it goes again.
Speaking of which. . . I need to go do some market research. Again, congratulations!